That does not mean that I'd have any less problems, but hey, those are the small things that make life wonderful!

and some might have wondered why the last blog was in german: it's quite simple. I just FELT like writing in german. you know, I always (or most of the time) do what I feel, what I want to do right now, and yesterday I felt like blogging in german. and besides, it was really not that interesting. only the regular, pathetic, sarcastic shit that is in every post of me.

so... what can I say? I know I've been a bad webmistress. But I have better things to do - as simple as it sounds. well, actually not simple but as it sounds. sorry. BUT that does not mean that I forget my online friends! so - I love you all (yay :)), and here some people that have to be plugged:

Paul, Neko, Alex (new domain hurrah!), Rae (yay I found another david lynch geek!!!), and some others but I'm busy in a hurry lol - as always!

oh oh I forgot: I'm going to cinema with this paul guy! good news actually, but we're going with our french classes to see this amelie movie in french. so not really a date lol. but at least something. AND it is on valentine's day! that has to mean something!
and valentines day! do I have any secret online admirerers? male? or female? because that would be cool. you know, I don't think I'll get any important (say non-nerd) cards, so at least something in the online world lol.

and - astrid lindgren is dead. I'm sad. I loved Pippi Langstrumpf. The books as well as the movies. Rest in peace.

----> later on:
no kath! you're depressed?? oh I just read your blog. it made me sad. and - about the not so important things (if you compare it to the first part of your blog) - I know what you mean. I remember, when I just started, I was like - WOW I have one visitor! that is so cool!
and now - everything about hits hits hits. nah. I'll change that. I have my regular visitors, and if I'd be a movie, I'd certainly be a independent movie that no one knows but the few who do like it. I hope. but it's not important actually. the hits thing. oh I'm repeating myself!

you know what? I have got the email adress of this guy I have the site about - but three times from three different people who "prefer to stay anonyme". and I emailed to one, wich I thought was the best, and it was an email like "I don't think you are him but let's try (and can my site be the official?)", and this guy emailed back ("yes I am him and sorry I already gave the permission out to someone else"). hmm. that's all I have to say.

and! SU! I'm currently on translating the first pages of my novel. it's fucking WORK but who cares. I do this all for you lol. (but I'm sure it will be crap :()

and KATH! You understood the german thing? I think I'll do that more often lol
Pea ][



mardi, janvier 29, 2002


--- begin german blog ---

es kotz mich halt alles SO an. Ich mein - man sollte denken die leute hätten genug mit ihren eigenen problemen zutun, so wie sie ständig jammern und sich beklagen "hach wie schlecht die welt doch ist". ja! ich weiß das ich das auch mache - aber ich pfusch den leuten dann halt wenigstens nicht in ihr zeug rein mein gott.
ständig - ständig! mach dies, mach das, mach's besser, mach's schöner. also eigentlich ist ja alles zum kotzen was du machst, bitte geh doch mal raus und häng dich an diesem schönen baum auf, da bist du wahrscheinlich besser aufgehoben. ja, wir haben unser leben eh nicht unter kontrolle und sind abgefuckte idioten, aber das hält uns noch lange nicht davon ab, anderen zu sagen wie sie ihr leben führen sollten und uns in ihre angelegenheiten einzumischen.
und nein - nicht das man HILFT! OH GOTT! das mädel muss ja selbständig sein! Ist ja alt genug! Also meckern wir an ihr rum und machen alles nur noch schlimmer.

--- end german blog ---

my searchengine referrals for this site are a lot more interesting than for cheerzombie.net:

lord of the rings/arwen wallpaper
lord of the rings Arwen wallpaper
harry potter cliques
elite cliques
aragon lord of the rings wallpaper
legolas cliques graphics
berty botts jelly beans they're empty again *sniff*
2raum wohnung great band
Pea ][



samedi, janvier 26, 2002


save your happiness for tomorrow today we'll drown in your tears
I thought I'll post some more HIM lyrics because sara said that she only knew HIM from my blog, and that was reason enough for me NOT to stop the HIM posts lol

I did SO much today! at least it seems so. I already posted this at cheerzombie, but I can never promote myself enough, so here are some sites of me you should visit:
Zja Seja, Teen Crap, gone with the sin, the kingdom.

so that was it for the promo thing. what else happened today? well I've been to a movie exhibiton and I got the HACKERS movie poster! HURAHHHH! (I think that's the moment where I'll plug amelia)

oh I've updated the dailies section: saves me from a lot of plugging :)

and I met janine, and now I'm sure that munich can't be any bigger than a small village or something lol. and janine, if you red this - I've met 2 persons more who have seen aschenbroedel und die drei haselnuesse!! (reminds me that we still have to watch it together)

movie comparisions
I love comparisions. I though about what movie the people on the net were if you would compare their image. you know, little willow would propably be lotr (thanx marlyin :)) because she (and the movie) is very popular.
Marilyn would be something like Ocean's Eleven, I guess.
And I was thinking about myself. I would definately be some b movie that no one knows despite some obsessed movie freaks and in wich the characters are always depressed and the story is very pointless. you know, sort of a david lynch pseudo movie.
but marylin said I'd be the talented mr. ripley. I haven't seen the movie, maybe I should do that.
hey I'm waiting for your suggestions!

love me
and kath is in love - congrats, I'm happy for you! - but that makes me depressed again. :( I know that's pathethic, but I SO want to be in love again, too!!!!!!!! I mean... I feel like I have no feelings anymore. everyone bores me (boys)!
hmm... the last guy I "liked" was this paul (I married him in the mash test lol), who is... uhm does anyone know the fc bayern munich? propably all the european people. well he is playing football for them (as a junior of course, but that doesn't change the fact that he gets VERY much money and fame and blah), and he is like the perfect guy.
He looks... more than great, really. he is successful and everything, and nice (terribly nice! argh! I hate him for that!!!) and of course he has a girlfriend.
and that SO reminds me of those stupid us teen movies (e.g she's all that). he would obviously be the fantastic, ever loved football champ, she would be the cheerleader queen (and btw, that would explain my heather graham dislike: his girlfriend looks EXACTLY like heather graham (ok, she has something of smg as well), and that's why I HATE heather). anyway, if that would be a teen movie, I would of course be... no I would NOT be the nerd because the nerd usually is the one who takes over the cinderella part.
no, i would propably be those guys, like e.g. in clueless, who sit on the grass and when the nerd gets introduced to the school by the popular people (while they still don't know that the nerd is a nerd), the just point them out "those are the freaks. never hang aournd with the freaks". yep I'd definately belong to this part.

friday five
oh and, as usual, like every sunday, I took the friday five!
1. What cologne or perfume do you wear?
mostly nothing. but if I do... kenzo jungle l'elephant or kenzo flower. but nothing else than kenzo.

2. What cologne or perfume do you like best on the opposite sex?
sweat and smoke. the smell of sex :)

3. What one smell can you not stomach?
eggs.

4. What smell do you like that others might consider weird?
paint, terpentine, gas and everything like that.

5. How do you plan to spend your weekend?
weekend is almost over. gonna do homework today

should I be... proud?

some interesting links
- this person must be crazy. someone who... god I don't want to speak it out... doesn't like lotr.
- this made me laugh
- this person does not like orlando bloom. is that possible?
Pea ][



jeudi, janvier 24, 2002


pessimistic much?
so, today, I checked my email (like always), thinking (like always): omg, I'm sure there'll be about thirty emails in my inbox. please no, I can't answer them anyways.
and guess what - whoever is there, over us, watching our inboxes, he heard me and *hurrah* they were only 12 emails in my inbox! but of course - I was like "oh no... people don't like me anymore *sob sob*". can you say I'm stupid? lol

red curtains and blue lightings
anybody has seen Mulholland Drive? the latest David Lynch?
I did. yesterday. and this "experience" left a mess in my mind!
So... I'm gonna *try* now, to list everything I did NOT understand (although it would propably be easier to list what I understood)
here we go.

- What was the guy in the cafe for? And this creature behind the cafe? was it diane, betty or someone? or what?
- the old people! why were they so small? and what did they do in the blue box? and why did they scare diane so much, that she shot herself?
- were betty and diane one person or not? and if they were, who was the dead girl on the bed?
- and the aunt! diane said she got money from her aunt (who died). but could this aunt maybe be the same like betty's who still lived?
- WHAT THE HELL was this small man and the whole italian brothers thing for? you know the guys from the movie company? and why did they want this one girl? and why was she also called camilla? (a hint?)
- what was the 2nd blue key for?
- why the whole massaker in this... office. you know, where the guy shot the fat woman and searched for the black book?
- why the whole thing in the theatre ("everything is an illusion/il n'y pas d'orchestre")
- why was betty in the blue box BEFORE camilla/rita had the key? or wasn't she in the box?
- what the heck was this fucking blue box for?

I could go on and on, but my fingers are tired from typing.
oh but what really killed me in the movie was that EVERYTHING was Twin Peaks related! I mean, the small man from the movie company. and the red curtains in the theatre! and EVERYTHING was blue and left! (Twin Peaks... everything is blue and left).

I know most of you will not understand anything of what I've written here (well I don't as well :)). but if there's someone - please tell me, I SO need someone to talk with about this!
Pea ][



mardi, janvier 22, 2002


being testy again
You live in a Shack.
You're married to Ville.
You drive a Beetle.
Your car is the color silver.
You live in the state france.
Your honeymoon is Helsinki.
Your occupation is a professional.
You have this many kids: 1 (0 male; 1 female).

take it yourself and don't *blush* :)

I mean... tadaa! I live in a shack. in france. with ville. and I'm a professional (yes I freaked out a bit, I didn't know what else to fill in so... well professional [...], I wasn't serious). ANYWAYS! the results SUCK!

ok, took it again:
You live in a Mansion. (hehehe)
You're married to paul. (one gorgeous non-celebrity in our school... sigh... will be a celbrity though, cause he's .. oh long story.)
You drive a rolce royce. (hehe)
Your car is the color silver. (ok)
You live in the state alaska. (perfect)
Your honeymoon is NY. (wonderful)
Your occupation is a Director. (movies yay)
You have this many kids: 3 (1 male; 2 female). (too many for me but hey, I have the money for a nanny)

Mentionings :)
oh there are SO many people I want to plug!!! but I gotta leave cause I write a test in politics, so just some thanx (links follow soon):
Clare for calling me the most unique webdesigner (oooh! you know how to make me smile)
Sara for this wonderful fansign (surprise! woah I'm happy! you made my day!)
Kath, Amelia, Neko, Marylin, Tine, Janine, Paul, Emma...... ah I'm off now! more later!!
Pea ][



lundi, janvier 21, 2002


people seem to have kind of a highschool trauma
really everywhere I go I see posts like "OMG *whine whine* the web is turning out to be like highschool *sob sob* with all the popular people *sniff* and all the competition *sob*"
I don't understand it. I mean, I love school, and there's not really a big competition of popular people and non-popular people. of course - there are cliques and people I don't like ("[...] is SO the bitch, please someone shoot her"), but there's not much of a "oh I'm so not popular I'll take that terrible experience called highschool everywhere with me and I'll never get over it".
oh I know that wasn't clear but come on, you know what I mean!

new entry in the movies list
trainspotting entered my favourite movies list.
great movie. one of the movies where you laugh your ass off and later on, you just sit there and stare. it was fucking great. fantastic movie. still dazzled.
and OMG I forgot pulp fiction. same symptomes. first laugh, then stare. love the scene where uma has taken too much coke. very weird. very disgusting, but love it.

oh and KIDS! it's like the weirdest movie ever.
my friend and I set there and watched and we were lik "story come out" and FINALLY when it seemed like there was a story, the movie ended. strange. ok I'll blog more today, sorry for the shorty!
Pea ][



samedi, janvier 19, 2002


mess with the best and die like the rest
har har... know that quote? it's from my all time favourite movie HACKERS.
I saw it like 3 times the last week. I'm really in my HACKERS phase again.

AND I made a list with my favourite movies, those wich I can see again and again (I left out LotR cause that would be... inequitable you know :)).

1) HACKERS Angelina's role is my idol, if I'd have to choose one. and the movie itself - woah. It is the only movie I can see three times in a row without being bored.
2) the Matrix
3) harry potter
4) Aschenbroedel und die drei Haselnuesse czech version of cinderella. don't ask. but it's wonderful and GUESS what! I talked to janine about it and she knows it. it's amazing that SO MANY people know it! WOAH!

well following movies are seven, 12 monkeys, the exorcist (VERY funny. I laughed my ass off in this movie) and some others. but those four movies are REALLY my favourites.

the EBMoD strikes back
(for all who don't know: the EBMod (Evil Bitch Monster of Death) is my mother)

well she's been bitchy again.
"I'm not a hotel! you come here to sleep and you let me wash your clothes and that's all! if you think it's better there, move to your dad! I won't do this anymore!"
and blah blah blah.

besides, I have a school record: 5 (that would be ... I guess D) in math, physics and chemistry tests.
hey I never had a D in a big test before and now 3! THREE!
wonderful. I still haven't told my dad.

blah blah blah being bored and boring.
Pea ][



mercredi, janvier 16, 2002


friends will be friends
life still sucks and it gets worse every day. I don't know what I'd do without you?
my on- and offline friends - guys I'd be dead without you. really. you so cheer me up with the things you said - thank you. you all.

sorry it's just a short, really short post but I said I don't have lots of time, but I just wanted to say that, you're the best. thank you!

(oh and you know what the shitty part of my day makes even more shittier (btw, does that word exist? anyways...)?
I didn't find shoes! AHH! my size, they didn't have my size! they were like... PERFECT! ARGHH! hey it's a good sign that I still have the time to complain about those things, isn't it lol)
Pea ][



mardi, janvier 15, 2002


I'm a looser baby so why don't you kill me
It is interesting that I actually can write like forever and all I get is one comment (thanx Kath).

Yes, as you may have guessed, I'm in my all whiny tortured mood again. Why should I not be?
And by the way, I hate everyone. Every now and then, I have this phase that I hate everyone. And that includes my enemies, though they are actually those who I love to my last breath, my best friends, my dumb friends (aaaaaaaah they are sooo superficial! so stupid! ahhh!), my parents and my net friends.
sorry to say that but yes everything that I don't like about you is turning into a big mistake of all of you. that would be that some hostees don't blog at strange-love.org, that no one comments this, that no one emails me, that no one is here. I hate hate hate this world with all its fucking people. I hate it. I hate my life.
And it's myself who I hate the most. I'm dumb, stupid, ugly, silly, un-intelligent, I have no actual sense of humour, I'm just absolutely useless.

And now I will go and cry and after that I will buy shoes. I need new shoes. And clothes. And a life.
Where can I buy a life? and maybe, a new personality? that would be cool. you know, nothing special, just some of the persons who have the time to care about things like "does he like me" and "does this nailcolor fit my hair". and people who are embarrased about every shit. "oooh that's SO embarrassing why didn't you just kill yourself?".

and why do some people NEVER email back? God... I NEVER, NEVER, no matter how good my sites maybe will be in 100000 years, be one of those elitist bitches who NEVER email back.
I always try to be nice, and if people email me with emails like "I so love your sites, that's wonderful work" - why should I NOT email back? I mean... that's the last thing I can do? Isn't it?
Someone takes the time, visits your site, and even EMAILS you about it, so the last thing I can do is to reply, and if they have a site, no matter how bad it is (hey I'll post the first version of my first site here the next time. that is bad. really.), I'll visit it and sign the gbook or something.

and now - before this "flaming police" shows up like "ahh ahh linak has said something bad about [insert name of good webmaster here] now please everyone go and missunderstand her!!!"
I didn't mean anyone special. I just know how it is. the more good feedback you get, the more you don't care about the people's comments who just start up. and that sucks.

oh god now I talked more than I should have. sorry. I said I'm whiningly. The people who know me (in real life or via the net), I hope you don't feel offended or something. the people who don't know me, please *try* to understand me. or just don't listen and think linak's a whiny bitch. that's fine with me, cause I am.
Pea ][



lundi, janvier 14, 2002


It's all over now, baby blue
The shit that likes to calls itself my life totally fucked up.

I mean... what's good about this whole messy crap?
I must be like... dumb and stupid and totally un-intelligent. And my "family" life and urgh... you all know the speech.

ANYWAYS! let's not talk about this. NOT.

I decided to uhm... censor myself a bit on this blog lol. Cause my FRIENDS! read this! OH.MY.GOD.
Well I have one problem less cause Bene's computer fucked up so he can't read this actually. Muahaha! But there's still Moony... she knows me far too much. Moony if you read this now: you know me far too much.

Does anybody know the crow: salvation soundtrack? I mean, it's like the best cd ever. ok there are some more, but this cd is fabulous. wonderful. it has everything. and of course ROB ZOMBIE! woohoo! I just love Living Dead Girl - the song - and I was so surprised when I saw the Faith dancing scene in Angel (where they play the song), you know it was in 5x5, wasn't it?
I just love this scene. and of course her dancing sequence in bad girl. if faith came back to btvs again, I would maybe watch buffy again.

damn I missed the power puff girls again. AHH! but isn't buttercup the coolest? she's always like grr... and of course the black smurf of the smurfs! my idols.

so... I've made a decision. I'll re-organize my life. I'll take the time I'm on the computer for sleeping, so that I have the power to do some... learning stuff. and I'll try to do the things I want to do.
what that means for you? nothing so far. Neko, Marylin will propably miss me on aim. sorry. so does paul - hey you really gotta email me I'm so gonna miss our chats, I don't know how I'll do it without!
I'll still try to blog here, and take care of my sites - as far as I can handle that within an hour.

Oh! and because Kath plugged me like 10 zillion times, I thought I'd do that too:
Kath / Kath / Kath / Kath / Kath / Kath.

Janine, Tine and Alex, we really should do a german blog. in german of course!
And did I tell you btw, that I'm going to see LotR with Janine on Thursday? woohoo! that's going to be so cool.

And of course, Su, I still haven't answered you: yes, I AM writing on a book. I have all those ideas in my head, and they all fit together - now I just gotta write them down. And hmm... I don't know if you can read them, cause they're german... and I'm not so the english girl that I could translate them.

Let's talk about weekend! I know it's monday... but though I already plans. So let's just go through my week.

Monday: the X-Files. Mulder died (I know we are FAR behind!) in the last eppie, I missed it, and today he's back. Malcom in the middle is on hiatus, and that sucks, cause this boy is just too cool.
Tuesday: PE in school. bah. after that: do some learning stuff? nothing else. don't want to spend the day at home, still need something to do.
Wednesday: Hmm... AH! mom's birthday! and bene and moony will visit me. so my mom's birthday will not be so boring for me but I still can pretend I was at home at her birthday.
Thursday: Drama class! after that Janine: LotR.
Friday: Taekwondo training, after that there's this big party somewhere.. I just hope my mom lets me go. God I just HAVE to go there!
Saturday: Nothing? headache. sickness. (friday). in the evening my mom asked me to have dinner with her and her boyfriend at a restaurant because of her birthday (that was on wednesday). Actually I planned to rent some movies with Moony (that's my first choice, whatsoever). We're going to see Pulp Fiction, Trainspotting, Reservoir Dogs, from Dusk till Dawn and after that Casablanca. Maybe also some other movies. Any suggestions?
Sunday: NOTHING! learn. friends. phone. watch tv. be depressed.

you see, there's not so much space for the comp.... hmm. but I won't give it up, be sure. I just... gotta re organize it a bit more!

Ok now some plugs: Emma has new designs up - très belle! Je les adore! C'est fantastique!
Sophie - I'm propably not human. I try to be. I try my best. I can't. I don't want to be. Why should I?
Being human sucks.

oh and I almost forgot to post this wonderful test here:

Take the The "What Teen Label Do You Fit Into Most?" Quiz!
by antiperfect

as you can see, I'm still not over my goth phase. I'll never be. being gothic is not a style of dressing, but a life style.

oh now that was a long post. Kath am I still entertaining? :)
Pea ][



dimanche, janvier 13, 2002


hello girls
this is orlando bloom. linak just let me use her computer and she said I should post something here.
I love you all!

uhm now I'm not only daniel radcliffe but also orlando bloom. I should start masturbating...
oh ok that was a dumb joke. but really! now they email me "hey orlando I'm your biggest fan..."
that's SO funny!

I.need.cigarettes.
AHHHHHHHHHH! where are my luckies when I need them? (yep lucky strikes are the only cigarettes that have my personal permission to kill me)
coffee doesn't work anymore.... no cigarettes reachable.......ahhhhhh..........

hmm I don't actually know what I could write now....
I'll plug myself:
Visit Linak, cause she has a new layout up at her domain! Hurray!

AHHH! again AHHH! this girl comes up with the idea that legolas actually looks like this nsync guy! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How CAN she??
Pea ][



vendredi, janvier 11, 2002


As you can see, I am not dead yet
Thanx Neko and Su for your comments thngs.... that really made me happy :)

Now how was my day? Well I had this physics test blah blah blah...
Not really interesting. hmm.

Oh I just gotta post this:
It was a while ago that I send out this "You've been added to the [...] listing" email out, cause I am a nice webmaster, or I try to be and always send out those emails.
Now I *oh how could you linak* didn't spell Marilyn Mansons name right - Oh my god what a mistake, I mean typing mistakes occure (esp. when you're typing with 10 fingers), don't they.
And then I got this email back: "you have a fansite about marilyn manson and can't even spell his name - sad"
And that SO annoyed me! I'd actually say that it "kotz mich an", well you wouldn't understand as it is german.
I wrote back "I get like 50 emails a day and I have like half an hour to reply to all of them, I have lots of sites and misspellings are the last thing I care about" - wich is true, I mean I have a life! I can't spend so much time with replying to emails!
Anyways, the girl replied "I run a domain, a blog, a journal and some fansites, I know what it's like to get 50 emails a day and you don't have to reply to them in half an hour!"
Oh you poor girl...

I run a two domains, one personal and one hosting domain. I have three cliques, two big fansites, some fanlistings, a blog, I post at 3 other blogs too, I have a design site and some other sites.. I don't remember them all right now. I have a social life with friends, problems, sometimes "love" and fun. I have my school life, wich really sucks right now, and I care about my weblife.
So far I can handle all that - and really, the last thing I think about are my typing mistakes.
Go to hell.

After that pretty pointless thing... I should post something about more important things... like BOYS!
lol well not really.
Fact is - I want someone. Being alone so sucks! not that I'd want a real "love" - I don't think that's possible for people younger than 18 anyways, or that it even exists.
Love is... for me something between friendship and well, sex. and that doesn't exist from my point of view.
anyways, I want *someone*. Someone who causes me heartache, pain.... no I'm not on SM, I just want *feelings*. and heartache... you know like to crave and long for someone so much that it makes you feel sick and takes your breath - that are feelings for me.
WHERE ARE YOU?
Pea ][






FUCK BLOGGER
Pea ][



jeudi, janvier 10, 2002


I hate myself and I want to die
Before you go "what the hell" (only the unknowing of course) - this is one famous quote of Kurt Cobain, and I just had to post it cause that phrase was in my head all the day.
Reasons? Well life's a bitch and I have the habit to go like "sucide-yay" as soon as everything's turning out to be shit again.

AHHH! stop.
Gotta post something interesting... No first I really have to plug some people:
Jen, Marylin, Neko, Su...oh I'm getting lazy again. I'll plug more later.

Oh I have made... uhm a graphic with some pics of me. You should better NOT look at it, cause you could be... disappointed, disgusted, whatever, but it is here for all the brave ones of you :)

"I wanna thank you mom/I wanna thank you dad/For bringing this fucking world to a bitter end
You say you wanna evolution/the ape was a great big hit"

anyways. I'll hopefully see Nickelback in January... oh reminds me we have january and I should really hurry and buy tickets. Did anyone see them already life?

I always wonder... what will I do later? I mean... I have so many interests... and so many ideas but like no actual idea. I want to be a rockstar lol. But I can't sing so I'd have to become a popstar and I don't think we need any more Aguileras, do we?
So I'll have to finish my book, but I'd have to keep my rythm (about 2 pages a day - thanx to school where I have so much time) and then I'd finish it in 3 years, now you can calculate how much it will be. anyways, as soon as I've finished the book, I'll make a movie out of it, self-directed, and everyone will love it and I will get lots of money. I'll finally be a rockstar, at least my life will be the one of a rockstar, I'll kinda-marry Orlando Bloom (well we'll have a relationship since I don't want to marry) and betray him with Ville Valo cause my dark site is just too strong.
I'll hate my life, but travel a lot and I'll spend the evening of my life in Finland how it was always my wish.

So far - that's the plan.

By the way : Read. This.
Pea ][



mercredi, janvier 09, 2002


HA! HA HA!

You will marry LEGOLAS from Lord of the Rings, live in an ancient elven palace in the middle of the forest, and spend your days walking on top of snow and rowing ivory boats and just being beautiful.

I KNEW IT! HA! HAHA! Now that made my day!

But still I've taken some other tests:

Cherry Lips

Uhm...

I am god

You know all and see all, but that doesn't prevent you from having a child-like innocence and a playful sense of humor. You obviously think very highly of yourself, but that's okay, everyone does. Told ya God was a woman!!

Take The "Which Kevin Smith Female Are You?" Quiz!!
Pea ][



lundi, janvier 07, 2002


School School Hurry Hurry
Yay back in school so hurry hurry. I've done big math today and physics and hey I didn't become stupid in two weeks! I still know my stuff. Just now don't get back to the usual linak, just try to *do something* and don't just say "oh it will work I don't have to learn"
anyhow, I just did math and I love it! I know why I always did: it's just my version of meditating, you know when the world falls down in chaos there is still algebra and you can be sure there's a solution for that, and you just... have it. try a bit and here we go! the solution. it always works. the only thing working for me right now.
oh and my friends! at school, you know I was like three minutes away (to talk to a teacher) and when I came back there was a drawn picture of me on my place, and they said "that's what's going to be next year" (next year I'll leave germany for one year in the us), and it was so funny and we all laughed cause it was just so... uhm weird and sweet, but when I think about it it was so sad. I don't know how I'm going to live without them... for one year!
ah okie do just a quickie ;) for today, tomorrow more! I just had to learn SO much! And now sleep wants me to join him, byes!
Pea ][



dimanche, janvier 06, 2002


What the FUCK are you doing here
No no (but I've learned my lessons, see?)! I just wanted to say you should better jump over to Janine's cause she's got a damn beautiful design up! Wooo hooo for her!!!!

But hey you can stay here a bit! I've blogged about 7 times today, there are some interesting things!
Pea ][

I am 60% evil.

2. What was the last movie you saw in a theater?
LotR! hey better don't ask movie stuff cause you're talking to a mayor LotR obsessed!

3. What was the last video or DVD that you bought?
Uhm... I actually don't have DVD (yes that IS possible) but my dad has, and I think he bought Pulp Fiction and well I would have done the same.

4. What movie could you watch over and over again and not get sick of?
Lord of the Rings?

5. How do you plan to spend your weekend?
Weekend is almost over cause I'm a bit late with the friday five lol. It's actually Sunday and hmm... what did I do?
I was on the computer, read, talked to my friends and pretended to learn for school. I know I didn't really enjoy it as I should have since it is my last weekend before school starts as again but hey.

Friday Five.com
Pea ][






Testily
I am the only CAT! the crazy cat! Almost!
Ok Ok I'll explain what I mean. In most of the tests you take, everybody seems to have the same results! I mean... with the resolution test for new years, so many people had smooch!
But the Alice in wonderland test! I'm almost the only person who is the insane cat! YAY! And I am the tortured squirrel what really made me think because most tests are somehow true. I must admit, sometimes I am all whiny and blah.... I could change that. hmm. hm hm.
Gotta watch Twin Peaks again, maybe things get clearer then.
Pea ][






In Hell
I was there. It is not nice I can swear.
I just learned physics. With my dad. I'm dead now.

Did anyone see flatliners by the way? It is so the cool movie. oh yes it's old but it's cool.
there are so many crappy movies out there! brrr *shivers*

and thank you all for your lovely comments! I'll plug you tomorrow but I just replied to about fifty emails ("are you daniel radcliffe??") and I got so many applications for my precious. Some sites have good content but crappy design... some sites have none of it. Some sites are good... I have to reply all of the applications.
AND IF ANYONE says that elite cliques owners are dumb or whatever! You WON'T believe how hard it is to reply and review and everything! GOD!
There were people who warned me... I should have listened!
No Linak stop. The tortured squirrel is showing up again. No actually I love it to get so many email, and that so many people want to join and I even love the "are you danny emails" cause they are SO funny!
Pea ][






Comment this
Pleeeease! At least this design! And all the other posts! I NEVER get commented!
I asked for good words to curse... I just got two responses (thanx Neko for being so original and Amelia for saying something that I can't say ;)).
Well I'll give you the chance AGAIN! Teach me how to curse! Or are you americans really as prudish as we say in germany? *tries to provoke*
Pea ][



vendredi, janvier 04, 2002


In the time of chimpanzees I was a monkey
butane in my veins and I'm out to cut the junkie
with the plastic eyeballs, spray-paint the vegetables
dog food stalls with the beefcake pantyhose
kill the headlights and put it in neutral
stock car flamin' with a loser and the cruise control
baby's in Reno with the vitamin D
got a couple of couches, sleep on the love-seat
someone came in sayin' I'm insane to complain
about a shotgun wedding and a stain on my shirt
don't believe everything that you breathe
you get a parking violation and a maggot on your sleeve
so shave your face with some mace in the dark
savin' all your food stamps and burnin' down the trailer park
Yo. Cut it.
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
Forces of evil on a bozo nightmare
ban all the music with a phony gas chamber
'cuz one's got a weasel and the other's got a flag
one's on the pole, shove the other in a bag
with the rerun shows and the cocaine nose-job
Pea ][






Now what's true?
Linak loves Twin Peaks, I like to pretend things I am not (like that I am a nice person lol). I am NOT predictable and tortured aka depressed.
Oh I'm so the wreck. Really.
Pea ][






The Eighties Pop Act Test deems me:
50% Eighties Pop Act
You are The Smiths: You were a peripheral player in the eighties, people thought it was cool to be your friend, but they never really wanted to spend time with you. Go watch Twin Peaks reruns.
Pea ][







Strawberry: 0/100 Pear: 20/100 Banana: 30/100 Tomato: 50/100 Lemon: 10/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by webkin and aaronr
Pea ][







Which Evil Criminal are You?
Pea ][







Take the Affliction Test Today!
Pea ][

Take the "What kind of Squirrel am I Test!"

You're the epitome of insane. Either you're very smart, or you're too damn stupid. The world is your playground, and everything -- and everyone -- in it is a toy for you to play with. People should be scared of you, but because you're so affable, they aren't. Tough for them.

Pea ][






Oh Yeah aren't my titles the best ? ;)
Yesterday evening, when I actually wanted to finish the letter from wich my "parents" (host fam.) will choose me ("describe yourself, interests, a typical day" and- ahh!- "why will my fam. benefit by welcoming YOU"), M called.

BEGIN POINTLESS AND NOT INTERESTING AND SILLY AND "DONT READ" POST /

"Hello. What do you do tonight?"
"Uhm... hmm.. busy.. stuff... you know" panic- I don't want to go out tonight! "why ?"
"No. You come over here and then we go somewhere" eek!
"Noooo... *whine*... not tonight! M!.........No!"
"You do. Nothing special but come over here NOW!" Ahhhh... no people today! no social contact only today! nooooo
"Nahhhh... I just took a shower and have my pj's on... you can't..." please no! I wanted just a simple evening and working everything up I was to lazy or ill to do!!!
"I CAN!"

It went on for say five minutes like this, then I gave up (if you'd know her - you'd have done the same. she makes everyone do what she wants lol)
then I dressed, and I had like NOTHING to wear but I didn't care (WHAT??? Linak did NOT care what she wore???)

When I arrived, I met another friend of us, he was on his way to her, I'll just call him W. for now. He is nice and I have so much fun with him but he means even more people!! AHH!
Then we sat around and M decided to call another friend, let's call him W2. She didn't want to, so W had to call W2 and W2 was just having dinner so we had to wait.
Then they called again and asked if he wanted to go to a bar ("Los Amigos" - I HATE IT!!) but he didn't want to. Ok discussion. What do we do now? Why does W2 not want to go there?
Called W2 again, this time it was M. No it came out he didn't have money. Ok we don't care. What do we do now? Until this time, another friend had arrived, M2.
We hang around while M dressed and W told me that his girlfriend wanted to see Rockstar. Now that was worth a lough cause Rockstar is not exactly the movie you see with your girlfriend. Then M2, W and I decided to boycott the whole thing while M dressed.
It was like "Nah we don't want to go out tonight" "Why?? No please!" "Nope" "We do!" "Yeah then go. we stay here *giggle* HAHA!" But I said before that she has quite power over us so we left five minutes after that lol.

Ok next challenge. WHERE would we go?
M: Los Amigos
W: Cafe Central
M2: Seranos
Me: Chaos
After a long and hard fight where we changed sides about 50 times, it was ME who won! HA! (Chaos: not far away but far away, not expensive, very pretty)

And how can boys eat so FAST?? anyways, the others had a meal, I myself Tequila Sunrise *mmh yummy*. M2 and W try to stop smoking so they smoked like one and a half package lol.
Then we came to the decision that actually everyone of us should have a VD. No this isn't ment as it sounds, we just uhm... joked around a bit. We decided that you could get a VD also via french kissing (kisses! not what this expression is also for!) because of little wounds in your mouth and blah.
We came to the conclusion that it was like a big circle, cause W had kissed Moni (yeah they are best friends, that's part of their friendship - so cool ;)), and W had slept with his earlier girlfriend and M had something with U and U had something with almost everyone, such like with S and S is now the girlfriend of W2 who had himself a "relationship" with moony and that would close the circle but there are so many other people I left out now! (as well as myself hehe).

After lots of rambling around and talking about the newest rumours we told W that 99.99999% of girls do everything when they see a boy getting out of the shower with only a towel around his hips and with water drops all over his body, his hair wet and... you know what I mean :)
Then we decided he should tell us something for girls, what they could do, and please NOT a reply like "look good and sexy". We still don't know... *hmpf*. He said boys are 24/7 willing to get it on, with almost every girl.
But now that was not really what we wanted to hear, besides we already knew and whatsoever: Why can you kiss a boy and even if he knows that you *want* him, after that he doesn't look at you anymore? Now that was M's phrase and we were like "WOAH" cause it was exactly her situation, she kissed this boy and now it is like nothing happend, and she had now actually literally said she *wants with* him, what of course she didn't say but we were giggling around and W wanted to send a message to this boy, call him J, "hey she wants to sleep with you"
and we were really like little children while M was like "AHHHH GIVE ME YOUR CELLPHONE!!!!!!!!" and thank god that we didn't send it cause exactly this time J came around with a friend. W and I almost wanted to throw us out the window cause we couldn't stop laughing and M looked at us like she wanted to kill us and J was just *huh whats goin on?* and I know that's childish that we had so much fun because of that but it was just too funny.

okie do, now I said it was going to be pointless? a lot happened after that but I'm too lazy to write it all :)

/////// END OF POINTLESS POST /
Pea ][



mardi, janvier 01, 2002


Accents are sexy LOL. So far I got quite good comments on mine. You could listen here but I think you better don't do that because it is in all crappy quality and besides I have like the voice of a 5 year old girl and I really did not know what to say and that is why it sounds all "uhm...hm...well..*I-can't-speak-english"...hmm" - like.
Ohh yay I gotta go and design now. byes!
Pea ][






Names I've got a few.
And I listed them togheter with Bene (I'm sure we forgot some!!), first the ones my friends and I came up with:
Inar, Inak, L'inak, Linak, Lalinak, Katinka, Kalinka

Then from the web:
There's the one Neko came up with after I told her how she should speak Linak out: Peanut. Marylin uses that a lot, too.

Cause I couldn't say Peanut yesterday (too drunk) we have now a new version of that: Peanuck.

Su says Lina cause she once read something about a girl named lina and we decided we can't type it. Speaking of typing mistakes: Linka is also something I use a lot but only cause I can't type Linak.

Jams calls me Kath, dunno why she came up with that but its cool.

And then, the reason I'm writing all this is because Amelia (I love her! always comments! so nice!) said Lin in a comments and I like it so much. Lin sounds cool. Lin Lin. Has this asian touch...

Oh I just thought I could post my real name here, cause it is really boring and that's actually why I have all those names:
Katharina is my "normal" name, Elisabeth my second. My friends actually call me ina and you say that like eenah.

I CAN'T believe I rambled about my name like forever! and all those people I plugged! yay!
Pea ][